NIGHT TEARS….
Memories, reflections, joy, then deepest despair
all cascading through me,
As though a river bursting free after a winter
thaw in fury surging,
Aching now my heart is filled to ripping and I
weep unabashedly with
emotions unchecked, broken free from the walls of
reserve and stoicism;
Wearing my heart on my sleeve I stand wounded in
the gunfire of experience,
A trooper in the war called life for which I
never did enlist, merely drafted,
But running from battle to battle, from cause to
cause, from love affair
To love affair, from tragedy to tragedy, and
never tasting the wine of victory;
They stole my childhood and when I rebelled
locked me away branded as insane,
From those days I walked Selma’s roads, Harlan
Counties muddy trails, then
Wintered in an army prison for asking the reasons
why, and they starved me,
But I won that struggle at another price so high
I often asked myself why?
Now I sit playing the tunes from those long and
hungry decades, tears stream,
Heart aches for what was given, what was lost,
how little was won, gathered
In these years of my graying, as pain wracks me
in these lonely weary hours,
And I look to my shotgun and think about the
peace that lies therein, eternal….
YET ONE MORE BONGO SYMPHONY……
Lost in the chorale of empty streets filled with
echo memories,
Can you dig the sound of naught, the utter cool
of lost dreams
Harmonizing with the spirit of places been and
now far gone,
Sounds of bongos dissonant, fingers snapping in
the darkness,
Rhythms of days gone by, then the memory of
future yesterdays
Played out like a skein unwinding into a moebius
strip of fabric;
Notes ring out somewhere on the edges of
consciousness,
Playing a symphony that was almost too far out,
Filling the ancient concert hall setting in the
country of dreams,
With an audience of wandering hungry souls
wreathed
In the smoke of audacious hallucinations tinged
blue and
Framed in visions of the Mad Hatters very own tea
party;
It all seems to come together in a land not on
any map,
In a city painted with illusions of a life that
cannot be attained,
And they scuttle to and fro amidst the garbage
and the trash,
Seeking somewhere warm and dry to get some refuge
from the storm,
Lost in the heart of a nation that all to often
forgets the poverty
Bound, those on the fringe are for whom this
symphony is written;
It may never be complete, this work of tortured
beauty,
Yet the coda, the allegro non troppo can go near
anywhere
For it only matters if the music is unheard, so
listen to the madness
Of the chords rising, falling, reaching the
crescendo of subway trains
In collision with the darkness that springs
infernal with a roar,
As passengers move like insects in and out of
stations without names…..
LACKING GUINESS STOUT BLUES….
Here it is 17 March and there is no stout, no
whiskey, no porter,
Just anthems of old Eire playing on the stereo
while I sit and thirst,
It’s giving me a case of the blues instead of
celebrating the green,
Drank a pot of coffee strong enough to sober
anyone, now if only I were drunk,
It’s enough to break your heart this condition
most pathetic,
I remember nights in saloons when the roar of my
poetry nailed down the floor,
And I drank Tullamore Dew from the bottle until
the dawn came creeping,
With comrades whose friendships I thought would
never die but
Ultimately even they were lost in the shifting
sands of times vagaries;
There was a time at seven thousand feet where I
went to hide from
The world but the world found me out and there
was days and nights
Where the booze flowed like a river of tears
across beds of lust, of passion,
Women came and went, and one shockingly handsome
state trooper whom
I loved in the shadows with kisses and bourbon
and dreams that could not
Be except in ripples of illusion that blended
with slivovitz and hopes lost,
Then that chapter closed like a great iron door
and I traveled south to
The border country of burnt desert and scrub
where I tried to study but
Again love sought me out and he and I played like
young lovers at the party
Of life, with dinners, movies, dancing, and long
nights of unbridled carnal
Pleasures that had no ending nor beginning merely
was until spent sleep
Found us out and nestled us in dreams tinged with
ouzo and sweet kisses;
Now it is the 17th of March and the
memories choke me deep and the longing
For a drink as deep as a raging river tears
through my soul and leaves me sad,
Lost among the detris of my memory and my dreams
and my fallen hopes…….
A POETS’ ROAD….
Four score and seven years ago ( no I’m not
rechanneling A. Lincoln ), okay
How about forty seven years ago I put pen to
paper and foot to stage,
So began my poets’ road and over these decades it
has been with me
Every day those verses, though I did work in
every form in every state,
As well as fought for every kind of cause in
places where the work
Needed doing, where suffering was great, where
rights were threatened,
But always there was poetry, writings and
readings and even publishing;
The poets’ road is paved with obstacles of every
type, and challenges
To stay true to the profession of the bard, be it
warrior, prophet, laborer,
All had there place, all had there time, and all
were done when doing was
Needed in their place and the cost was paid in
the coin of flesh demanded,
Sacrifice unyielding, even dreams that had to be
turned away for the time,
As highways were traversed, boots upon mountain
trails, sandals in the desert,
Miles unwinding like streams of black diamonds
unraveling behind my passage;
Yet always there was poetry, writings and
readings and even publishing,
Along the rain streaked pockmarked streets that
comprised the poets’ road,
Battles won and causes fought and lost, still
never shirking the duties call,
And forget not love that was pursued, gained,
then failed in the mist of night,
For love, whether gained or lost, is the armor
that holds the heart in thrall,
The quest followed like some mythic journey
across the frontiers of the hearts
Imagination, for that too comprises the glue of poetic
rhetoric on the length of
The poets’ road……
LADY OF LEISURE…
Her long tawny legs curled up under her as
Ophelia
Sat in the window seat looking at her horoscope
in the paper;
The translucent California sun streamed through
the window
Casting ripples of fantasy across the long
oriental rug;
Meanwhile the cat, concerned only with a growing
appetite
Disrupted the pastoral scene with a horrendous
caterwauling,
That startled the lady from her thoughts of
fortune unveiled,
And totally ruined her long sought after time of
leisure….
CINEMATIC DESPERATION BLUES…
I miss her so bad that my whole body is screaming
for a drink,
Or two or maybe the whole damn bottle, even if it
really can’t help,
And it’s Rita who died one California night near
the place called Venice,
Or Mary D. who I let slip away among the shadows
of the Texas night,
Or the
others who were loved, held close, kissed, then lost by my
Stupidity or lousy luck or just the misfortunes
of time and tide;
Now alone and feeling more alone than the highway
east from
El Paso where dreams were lost and scattered like
dust in the heat,
Songs of longing that scream louder than a coyote
in the night,
Tearing at my hearts flesh and laying open a soul
older than dirt,
And I miss her all and hate my blindness and
pathetic choices left
Busted like a bad French film without subtitles
where no one wins;
So in this May morning overcast and drear
desperation pounds on
The shores of my memory as music plays the
soundtrack of my film,
A tragicomedy of hopes split wide like a worn
paper sack drifting
Along the gutter with all the other detris that
composes the camera
Shots of these days winding down into the vortex
of self pity thoughts,
And all that’s left to say is if you’ve found a
love don’t let it go for the
Regret if you lose it will always cut sharper
than you can stand, so
Fade to black, end of film…..
LONG ROAD TO OBLIVION…….
There is a stretch of road from Austin to Las
Cruces thirteen hours long,
Barren beauty echoing dreams of time far gone
where you can lose your
Soul as you hurtle along its expanse searching
for the place where it ends,
Driven in one bone jarring push as the heat fries
your eyes, sand coats
Your mouth as the radio screams music from some
station south of the border to keep you awake and your focus on the vacant
horizon unfolding;
Rinsing my mouth with warm tequila fighting back
the inertia of exhaustion,
Time moves in the cadence of tires hissing on hot
concrete, engine rocking
Like an out of tune rock band in a cheap worn
roadhouse in a distant night,
And I made this haul roundtrip every weekend for
an entire summer,
Until the rhythms of this enraptured odyssey
became imprinted in my brain
Like a film loop from some new wave film without
beginning or an end;
The why was simple enough, a mix of love,
passion, in a desperate breath,
The way one only gets when you’re young enough to
not care about reason,
Only the feelings of the spirit when you think
you’ve found that one,
Thinking about his smile, his eyes, his lips, the
short time so precious in
Its’ yearning, burning need that the bone jarring
voyage is worth even a
Single searing kiss, one night of furious
explosive lust to hold on to;
And the road uncurls smoking hot like a ribbon of
brimstone ablaze in the
Passage of my steel ship cruising the void in
search of that special love…..
WINE OF MELANCHOLY…
Gray windy days torn by streaks of greasy frigid
rain descending,
The October country draping itself over feelings,
thoughts, dreams,
Creating an envelope that encloses, chokes,
strangles hope,
Spilling happiness across the stones like blood
from a wound fresh,
And there is nothing to be done but curl into a
ball and endure the assault;
Now the weather breaks, Indian Summer makes a
brief showing,
Sunshine dapples the red, gold, of hardwoods
shedding their coats,
Temperatures warm rather than chill the bones,
the flesh, and there is a hope
Emerging on the horizon, if only for a short
time, a chance encounter,
Dreams flow like a fresh stream through the
autumn countryside;
Soon however that promise will be broken by the
reality of seasons
Shifting through the passing days and the sky
will be leeched of color,
The air filled with a frosty bite that remains
like a stray dog seeking comfort,
Then rain will change into snow and ice as trees
become barren, furtive,
As sleep encases the earth in a shroud of long
standing desperation;
So now we are in that middle ground awaiting the
shifts that will come,
A cycle unstoppable, immutable, as long as time
flows its’ patterns,
We can weep the passage, or be joyous, or merely
accept what is,
For there is naught that the human touch can do
about it but await it,
Summer shall autumn be shall then become the tide
of winters breath…..
MISTY HIGHWAYS…
Autumn roads unraveling through the courses of my
memory,
An endless ribbon of places, people, events, long
unthought of,
Until this early morning hour when the chill
shakes them loose,
They spill out like building blocks from some
dusty playset,
Building into emotion filled images that are too
vivid to ignore;
A gathering unremembered comes to focus and I see
the barricades
Erected on streets when the time for rising
unfolded and came to be,
We stood for causes that made the heart soar in
their intensity,
As the blood we shed had more value that the
transitory pain felt,
Our songs raised above the din of sirens and
claxons sounding raw;
There was that love so rare that words can only
fail to describe,
A passion born from fugitive wanderings and the
accidental meeting
Of two souls seeking each other without knowing
they were sought,
Making the emotion ever more incendiary, the
contact more powerful
Than even imaginings could have supposed in all
of its musings;
Then there was that dilapidated smoky dark coffee
house where all
The rebels, artists, dreamers, travelers have
gathered to share life,
And poetry was read there that resounded with
hopeful dreamings,
Songs played that cut across the inner self with
tears, smiles, sharing
All the moments of everyone of our beings as we
moved through time;
Highways of autumn unspooling in the misty
morning like smoke upon
The eyes of thoughtful reminiscence as the coffee
steams fresh and we
Travel across the years…..
I’LL NEVER FORGET WHAT’S HER NAME…
There was a time in my sorrowful lonely night
that we came upon each other,
It was filled with furtive stumbling, word games,
then a sudden kiss that
Rose up in the smoky dark like a winged specter
to smite us with dreams
Of so much more, then clothing began to fall like
autumn leaves upon
A bonfire kindled by that spark of that single
kiss leaving us naked,
Wild like crazed creatures in a nocturnal fantasy
of an erotic storm;
Later we merged as one life upon the stage of
this existence and for a
While traveled together along the pathways of
time with a passion, a
Fury held together with laughter, tears, joy,
anger, and so much more,
Until we became scattered by the storms of being
and began to drift
Toward the rock strewn reefs of the sea of love
where destiny tore away
At us and left our hopes shattered as though
glass upon an anvil of iron;
And I’ll never forget what’s her name who gave so
much to this traveler
Who had not enough to give back and so lost it
all to his shame,
From love came the bitterness of failure and the
kisses ceased to fall
As twilight swooped down and became a tragic
midnight chorus of
An unrequited relationship that was devoid of all
but a sardonic smile
In a time of love spent, the used, then torn like
a cloud in the moonlight….
CHRISTMAS TIDE THOUGHTS…..
Crystalline snow laying in heaps like white sable
nestled over the earth,
Air crisp, fresh, flavored with pine and wood
smoke fills the sky,
It is the day before Christmas and my thoughts
turn and twist to those
Long gone past as well as to today, choking me
with strong emotion,
Not bitterness, only a sense of loss and of hope,
which is our nature;
Now it is the day of Yule and I find myself
alone, brewing strong coffee
While Beethoven fills the air with a string
quartet and I sit in deep
Thought wondering what is going on everywhere
else but that goes
Nowhere fast so I focus on the music, the dark
brew, grateful to have
Made it to yet another day no matter what it may
be or what it’s called;
This day passes without event leaving me with a
sense of peace as I
Accept the truth of my story and look upon the
snowy forest thankful
For their quiet wisdom, calm presence, and
enduring patience,
Night falls and I eat my dinner giving blessings
for what there is and
As darkness moves along toward the dawn my story changes
again;
So the Christmas tide comes and goes once more in
quiet fanfare,
Another year waiting in the wings to change, to
rollover the calendar,
More snow is coming and the air is sharp with ice
from the far north,
It is the season of the solstice when fires are
banked up higher,
As our dreams turn toward the distant days of
green fields, warm sun…..
Pulse Blues…
Rhythm coursing through my blood like the wild
Sargasso sea,
Memories of years gone by wash across me as if a
tide on a beach;
Music playing carries dreams across its’ waves
relentlessly,
March 6, 1967 Tim Buckley at the Folksong Center,
N.Y.C., a
Marker on the road that was to lead to San
Francisco and the
Summer of Love, another pulse in the travels of
this old poet;
Now I have the sounds, remembrance, and unfilled
yearning,
To pass
the long hours that grow ever shorter with time,
And there is this book I’m writing, a montage of
my life rife
With anecdotes , experience, history, philosophy,
the pulse of
Decades streaming from coast to coast like blood
rivers,
Forming canyons deep as all the power of emotion
unleashed;
So the day passes in streaming rain sounding the
chill of autumn,
The bones ache with a melancholy pulse rhythm
giving life a frame
Of pain that gnaws at what joy there may be
bringing darkness
To light, shadows to every movement that crosses
my weary vision,
But there is hope, no matter how faint or tremulous or flawed,
Now the hours pass,
music plays. And the pen doesn’t stop….
NIGHT TEARS….
Memories, reflections, joy, then deepest despair
all cascading through me,
As though a river bursting free after a winter
thaw in fury surging,
Aching now my heart is filled to ripping and I
weep unabashedly with
emotions unchecked, broken free from the walls of
reserve and stoicism;
Wearing my heart on my sleeve I stand wounded in
the gunfire of experience,
A trooper in the war called life for which I
never did enlist, merely drafted,
But running from battle to battle, from cause to
cause, from love affair
To love affair, from tragedy to tragedy, and
never tasting the wine of victory;
They stole my childhood and when I rebelled
locked me away branded as insane,
From those days I walked Selma’s roads, Harlan
Counties muddy trails, then
Wintered in an army prison for asking the reasons
why, and they starved me,
But I won that struggle at another price so high
I often asked myself why?
Now I sit playing the tunes from those long and
hungry decades, tears stream,
Heart aches for what was given, what was lost,
how little was won, gathered
In these years of my graying, as pain wracks me
in these lonely weary hours,
And I look to my shotgun and think about the
peace that lies therein, eternal….
YET ONE MORE BONGO SYMPHONY……
Lost in the chorale of empty streets filled with
echo memories,
Can you dig the sound of naught, the utter cool
of lost dreams
Harmonizing with the spirit of places been and
now far gone,
Sounds of bongos dissonant, fingers snapping in
the darkness,
Rhythms of days gone by, then the memory of
future yesterdays
Played out like a skein unwinding into a moebius
strip of fabric;
Notes ring out somewhere on the edges of
consciousness,
Playing a symphony that was almost too far out,
Filling the ancient concert hall setting in the
country of dreams,
With an audience of wandering hungry souls
wreathed
In the smoke of audacious hallucinations tinged
blue and
Framed in visions of the Mad Hatters very own tea
party;
It all seems to come together in a land not on
any map,
In a city painted with illusions of a life that
cannot be attained,
And they scuttle to and fro amidst the garbage
and the trash,
Seeking somewhere warm and dry to get some refuge
from the storm,
Lost in the heart of a nation that all to often
forgets the poverty
Bound, those on the fringe are for whom this
symphony is written;
It may never be complete, this work of tortured
beauty,
Yet the coda, the allegro non troppo can go near
anywhere
For it only matters if the music is unheard, so
listen to the madness
Of the chords rising, falling, reaching the
crescendo of subway trains
In collision with the darkness that springs
infernal with a roar,
As passengers move like insects in and out of
stations without names…..
LACKING GUINESS STOUT BLUES….
Here it is 17 March and there is no stout, no
whiskey, no porter,
Just anthems of old Eire playing on the stereo
while I sit and thirst,
It’s giving me a case of the blues instead of
celebrating the green,
Drank a pot of coffee strong enough to sober
anyone, now if only I were drunk,
It’s enough to break your heart this condition
most pathetic,
I remember nights in saloons when the roar of my
poetry nailed down the floor,
And I drank Tullamore Dew from the bottle until
the dawn came creeping,
With comrades whose friendships I thought would
never die but
Ultimately even they were lost in the shifting
sands of times vagaries;
There was a time at seven thousand feet where I
went to hide from
The world but the world found me out and there
was days and nights
Where the booze flowed like a river of tears
across beds of lust, of passion,
Women came and went, and one shockingly handsome
state trooper whom
I loved in the shadows with kisses and bourbon
and dreams that could not
Be except in ripples of illusion that blended
with slivovitz and hopes lost,
Then that chapter closed like a great iron door
and I traveled south to
The border country of burnt desert and scrub
where I tried to study but
Again love sought me out and he and I played like
young lovers at the party
Of life, with dinners, movies, dancing, and long
nights of unbridled carnal
Pleasures that had no ending nor beginning merely
was until spent sleep
Found us out and nestled us in dreams tinged with
ouzo and sweet kisses;
Now it is the 17th of March and the
memories choke me deep and the longing
For a drink as deep as a raging river tears
through my soul and leaves me sad,
Lost among the detris of my memory and my dreams
and my fallen hopes…….
A POETS’ ROAD….
Four score and seven years ago ( no I’m not
rechanneling A. Lincoln ), okay
How about forty seven years ago I put pen to
paper and foot to stage,
So began my poets’ road and over these decades it
has been with me
Every day those verses, though I did work in
every form in every state,
As well as fought for every kind of cause in
places where the work
Needed doing, where suffering was great, where
rights were threatened,
But always there was poetry, writings and
readings and even publishing;
The poets’ road is paved with obstacles of every
type, and challenges
To stay true to the profession of the bard, be it
warrior, prophet, laborer,
All had there place, all had there time, and all
were done when doing was
Needed in their place and the cost was paid in
the coin of flesh demanded,
Sacrifice unyielding, even dreams that had to be
turned away for the time,
As highways were traversed, boots upon mountain
trails, sandals in the desert,
Miles unwinding like streams of black diamonds
unraveling behind my passage;
Yet always there was poetry, writings and
readings and even publishing,
Along the rain streaked pockmarked streets that
comprised the poets’ road,
Battles won and causes fought and lost, still
never shirking the duties call,
And forget not love that was pursued, gained,
then failed in the mist of night,
For love, whether gained or lost, is the armor
that holds the heart in thrall,
The quest followed like some mythic journey
across the frontiers of the hearts
Imagination, for that too comprises the glue of poetic
rhetoric on the length of
The poets’ road……
LADY OF LEISURE…
Her long tawny legs curled up under her as
Ophelia
Sat in the window seat looking at her horoscope
in the paper;
The translucent California sun streamed through
the window
Casting ripples of fantasy across the long
oriental rug;
Meanwhile the cat, concerned only with a growing
appetite
Disrupted the pastoral scene with a horrendous
caterwauling,
That startled the lady from her thoughts of
fortune unveiled,
And totally ruined her long sought after time of
leisure….
CINEMATIC DESPERATION BLUES…
I miss her so bad that my whole body is screaming
for a drink,
Or two or maybe the whole damn bottle, even if it
really can’t help,
And it’s Rita who died one California night near
the place called Venice,
Or Mary D. who I let slip away among the shadows
of the Texas night,
Or the
others who were loved, held close, kissed, then lost by my
Stupidity or lousy luck or just the misfortunes
of time and tide;
Now alone and feeling more alone than the highway
east from
El Paso where dreams were lost and scattered like
dust in the heat,
Songs of longing that scream louder than a coyote
in the night,
Tearing at my hearts flesh and laying open a soul
older than dirt,
And I miss her all and hate my blindness and
pathetic choices left
Busted like a bad French film without subtitles
where no one wins;
So in this May morning overcast and drear
desperation pounds on
The shores of my memory as music plays the
soundtrack of my film,
A tragicomedy of hopes split wide like a worn
paper sack drifting
Along the gutter with all the other detris that
composes the camera
Shots of these days winding down into the vortex
of self pity thoughts,
And all that’s left to say is if you’ve found a
love don’t let it go for the
Regret if you lose it will always cut sharper
than you can stand, so
Fade to black, end of film…..
LONG ROAD TO OBLIVION…….
There is a stretch of road from Austin to Las
Cruces thirteen hours long,
Barren beauty echoing dreams of time far gone
where you can lose your
Soul as you hurtle along its expanse searching
for the place where it ends,
Driven in one bone jarring push as the heat fries
your eyes, sand coats
Your mouth as the radio screams music from some
station south of the border to keep you awake and your focus on the vacant
horizon unfolding;
Rinsing my mouth with warm tequila fighting back
the inertia of exhaustion,
Time moves in the cadence of tires hissing on hot
concrete, engine rocking
Like an out of tune rock band in a cheap worn
roadhouse in a distant night,
And I made this haul roundtrip every weekend for
an entire summer,
Until the rhythms of this enraptured odyssey
became imprinted in my brain
Like a film loop from some new wave film without
beginning or an end;
The why was simple enough, a mix of love,
passion, in a desperate breath,
The way one only gets when you’re young enough to
not care about reason,
Only the feelings of the spirit when you think
you’ve found that one,
Thinking about his smile, his eyes, his lips, the
short time so precious in
Its’ yearning, burning need that the bone jarring
voyage is worth even a
Single searing kiss, one night of furious
explosive lust to hold on to;
And the road uncurls smoking hot like a ribbon of
brimstone ablaze in the
Passage of my steel ship cruising the void in
search of that special love…..
WINE OF MELANCHOLY…
Gray windy days torn by streaks of greasy frigid
rain descending,
The October country draping itself over feelings,
thoughts, dreams,
Creating an envelope that encloses, chokes,
strangles hope,
Spilling happiness across the stones like blood
from a wound fresh,
And there is nothing to be done but curl into a
ball and endure the assault;
Now the weather breaks, Indian Summer makes a
brief showing,
Sunshine dapples the red, gold, of hardwoods
shedding their coats,
Temperatures warm rather than chill the bones,
the flesh, and there is a hope
Emerging on the horizon, if only for a short
time, a chance encounter,
Dreams flow like a fresh stream through the
autumn countryside;
Soon however that promise will be broken by the
reality of seasons
Shifting through the passing days and the sky
will be leeched of color,
The air filled with a frosty bite that remains
like a stray dog seeking comfort,
Then rain will change into snow and ice as trees
become barren, furtive,
As sleep encases the earth in a shroud of long
standing desperation;
So now we are in that middle ground awaiting the
shifts that will come,
A cycle unstoppable, immutable, as long as time
flows its’ patterns,
We can weep the passage, or be joyous, or merely
accept what is,
For there is naught that the human touch can do
about it but await it,
Summer shall autumn be shall then become the tide
of winters breath…..
MISTY HIGHWAYS…
Autumn roads unraveling through the courses of my
memory,
An endless ribbon of places, people, events, long
unthought of,
Until this early morning hour when the chill
shakes them loose,
They spill out like building blocks from some
dusty playset,
Building into emotion filled images that are too
vivid to ignore;
A gathering unremembered comes to focus and I see
the barricades
Erected on streets when the time for rising
unfolded and came to be,
We stood for causes that made the heart soar in
their intensity,
As the blood we shed had more value that the
transitory pain felt,
Our songs raised above the din of sirens and
claxons sounding raw;
There was that love so rare that words can only
fail to describe,
A passion born from fugitive wanderings and the
accidental meeting
Of two souls seeking each other without knowing
they were sought,
Making the emotion ever more incendiary, the
contact more powerful
Than even imaginings could have supposed in all
of its musings;
Then there was that dilapidated smoky dark coffee
house where all
The rebels, artists, dreamers, travelers have
gathered to share life,
And poetry was read there that resounded with
hopeful dreamings,
Songs played that cut across the inner self with
tears, smiles, sharing
All the moments of everyone of our beings as we
moved through time;
Highways of autumn unspooling in the misty
morning like smoke upon
The eyes of thoughtful reminiscence as the coffee
steams fresh and we
Travel across the years…..
I’LL NEVER FORGET WHAT’S HER NAME…
There was a time in my sorrowful lonely night
that we came upon each other,
It was filled with furtive stumbling, word games,
then a sudden kiss that
Rose up in the smoky dark like a winged specter
to smite us with dreams
Of so much more, then clothing began to fall like
autumn leaves upon
A bonfire kindled by that spark of that single
kiss leaving us naked,
Wild like crazed creatures in a nocturnal fantasy
of an erotic storm;
Later we merged as one life upon the stage of
this existence and for a
While traveled together along the pathways of
time with a passion, a
Fury held together with laughter, tears, joy,
anger, and so much more,
Until we became scattered by the storms of being
and began to drift
Toward the rock strewn reefs of the sea of love
where destiny tore away
At us and left our hopes shattered as though
glass upon an anvil of iron;
And I’ll never forget what’s her name who gave so
much to this traveler
Who had not enough to give back and so lost it
all to his shame,
From love came the bitterness of failure and the
kisses ceased to fall
As twilight swooped down and became a tragic
midnight chorus of
An unrequited relationship that was devoid of all
but a sardonic smile
In a time of love spent, the used, then torn like
a cloud in the moonlight….
CHRISTMAS TIDE THOUGHTS…..
Crystalline snow laying in heaps like white sable
nestled over the earth,
Air crisp, fresh, flavored with pine and wood
smoke fills the sky,
It is the day before Christmas and my thoughts
turn and twist to those
Long gone past as well as to today, choking me
with strong emotion,
Not bitterness, only a sense of loss and of hope,
which is our nature;
Now it is the day of Yule and I find myself
alone, brewing strong coffee
While Beethoven fills the air with a string
quartet and I sit in deep
Thought wondering what is going on everywhere
else but that goes
Nowhere fast so I focus on the music, the dark
brew, grateful to have
Made it to yet another day no matter what it may
be or what it’s called;
This day passes without event leaving me with a
sense of peace as I
Accept the truth of my story and look upon the
snowy forest thankful
For their quiet wisdom, calm presence, and
enduring patience,
Night falls and I eat my dinner giving blessings
for what there is and
As darkness moves along toward the dawn my story changes
again;
So the Christmas tide comes and goes once more in
quiet fanfare,
Another year waiting in the wings to change, to
rollover the calendar,
More snow is coming and the air is sharp with ice
from the far north,
It is the season of the solstice when fires are
banked up higher,
As our dreams turn toward the distant days of
green fields, warm sun…..
Pulse Blues…
Rhythm coursing through my blood like the wild
Sargasso sea,
Memories of years gone by wash across me as if a
tide on a beach;
Music playing carries dreams across its’ waves
relentlessly,
March 6, 1967 Tim Buckley at the Folksong Center,
N.Y.C., a
Marker on the road that was to lead to San
Francisco and the
Summer of Love, another pulse in the travels of
this old poet;
Now I have the sounds, remembrance, and unfilled
yearning,
To pass
the long hours that grow ever shorter with time,
And there is this book I’m writing, a montage of
my life rife
With anecdotes , experience, history, philosophy,
the pulse of
Decades streaming from coast to coast like blood
rivers,
Forming canyons deep as all the power of emotion
unleashed;
So the day passes in streaming rain sounding the
chill of autumn,
The bones ache with a melancholy pulse rhythm
giving life a frame
Of pain that gnaws at what joy there may be
bringing darkness
To light, shadows to every movement that crosses
my weary vision,
But there is hope, no matter how faint or tremulous or flawed,
Now the hours pass,
music plays. And the pen doesn’t stop….